Today it poured.
Today I ran through the streets of Honduras with my team as two Honduran boys led the way.
Today I ran through the streets of Honduras with a 70-year-old Honduran Pastor. Dress shoes and all.
Today I learned that God gives
And God takes away.
Today I realized that I actually have no clue what I am doing.
Today was hard.
But it was so good.
For someone who has always had a plan and has always had everything together Honduras has been quite the adjustment.
When someone tells me the bus is coming at 2, I’m ready by 1:45 waiting at the bus stop.
And then the bus doesn’t come until 3.
Or maybe 4.
Possibly 5.
I don’t have the comfort of my bed.
Or my spacious closet.
I don’t have the luxury of being alone behind closed doors.
The flat Indiana corn is nowhere in sight.
Instead I sleep in my hammock in a room full of my family.
I live out of my backpack.
I wake up and walk to the prayer wall. I climb up the ladder and look out.
All I see are mountains that go on forever and I get to be alone with the Father.
Life is simple.
But that’s the amazing thing about this place.
We simply just live.
I’m learning to give up control and be patient…two things I thought I was an expert at.
I was wrong.
Today I learned that there’s people that read and believe, they see and believe, they listen and believe.
Then there’s those who live by faith, they do.
Sometimes God brings us really incredible things and then he asks us to give those things up.
Sometimes we have to learn to trust God.
A friend of mine compared this to a swing at our ministry site.
First you climb the tree and get real high up. Then you sit on the swing and all you have to do is jump.
But if you climb to the top and you wait around looking down at how far you could fall then you’ll never jump.
But if you climb up, take a deep breath, and then just let yourself go then you’ve decided to trust that the swing will hold your weight and you’ll be okay.
You’ll be more than okay, you’ll be having the time of your life.
Trusting God is a little like this.
You can either have a relationship with God that’s right at the top, right there about to jump in, but not yet ready to let go of what’s keeping you secure.
Or you can completely trust Him and His plans for you, knowing He can hold your weight and knowing that He will always catch you.
God has never spoken more clearly to me before.
It’s just as exciting as it heart breaking.
God is asking me to give up something extremely special in my life so that I can fall deep in love with Him.
How do I do that?
How do I give up something that is so apart of me?
Faith.
Today I learned to trust that The Lord will never bring me to something that He can’t get me through and it has been a rough road to travel down.
But I have to trust that if He is asking me to sacrifice something for Him then He will have something so much better for us in the end.
Today I learned that trusting God is hard for me, but falling in love with the Savior will be so worth it.
Today I learned to let go of the person that is closest to my heart so that God can show me who I am in Him and completely fill me up with His unfailing love.
Today I decided to take the hardest leap of faith I’ve ever taken.
Today my Father asked me to just simply be in his presence.
And to just simply live to serve Him.
Today was hard.
But it was so good.
